My Place in This World...?

"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways," says the Lord. "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9 NKJV The wind is moving But I am standing still A life of pages Waiting to be filled A heart that's hopeful A head that's full of dreams But this becoming Is harder than it seems Feels like I'm Looking for a reason Roamin' through the night to find My place in this world My place in this world Not a lot to lean on I need your light to help me find My place in this world My place in this world If there are millions Down on their knees Among the many Can you still hear me Hear me asking Where do I belong? Is there a vision That I can call my own? I heard this song today. I don't recall hearing it in years. Michael W Smith sang it & it came out in the early 90s--some twenty years ago. Twenty years ago I was a much younger man--I felt alive, my faith was strong, many of life's harsh realities had yet to assault me. I felt like I had goals & a purpose in life... Fast-forward to today...I wonder where that fired-up young man went with his passion for the things of GOD, his desire to make a difference. Life has a way of bringing us to our knees, literally. It spins out of control, clawing away at our very souls--all the while, Satan roars with laughter as we fall further & further away from the things of GOD & the plans He has for our lives. We fight & we struggle, trying to do things in our own power and in our own ways--failing to seek GOD's guidance through His Word or prayerfully communicating with Him to get guidance & build our spiritual strength. We allow the things of this world to contaminate us, to confuse us for no other reason than that we are no longer sensitive to the things of GOD because of our affiliation with the world, it's political correctness and ungodly philosophies. The shame of it all is that it doesn't have to be that way. If we turn our attention back to the things of GOD, if we turn our backs on the world, if we live our lives in total submission to the One who created us and knows us intimately, the One who desires to meet our every need--we can stay on track without the distractions. Suffice it to say that I struggle in many areas. What I know in my heart to be true, I often counteract with my words & actions. I seem to have been knocking on a lot of locked doors lately in my efforts to "help" GOD & I've been in a holding pattern for what seems forever. My desire is to be used by GOD but I often wonder if I am making any headway. Does what I do matter? Can GOD still use me in spite of my many failures? Will He open a door for me to serve Him in some ministry capacity? As always, I covet your prayers as I seek to fulfill my GOD-given life's destiny and find my place in this world... Blessings! Tony